Sensitivity

A few minutes ago, I stated my ideas and opinions over a certain topic. When I do so, I try to be as kind as possible, especially in places where I know people can get offended easily. After I posted, someone quoted me, and he mimicked my words in a dumb-sounding nutshell, said NO and told me to "go back to my shitty JJAbrams Star Trek fanfic."

When I spend long lapses of time on my own, I start depending on the kindness of strangers. But my mouth is stupid and always wants to opine. I forget that people don't like the concept of "opinion"...

I'm hurt, and feel like apologizing for stating my opinion, but if I do, I'll probably be called faggot or troll or something like that, so I'll shut up and bear it. Maybe I'm too used to strangers being nice to me, strangers alone. Maybe I'm just too sensitive, I don't know. I'm actually crying now. Crying because some guy I don't even know was mean to me.

Really...? Yes... that's me, after all.

Why is it that when I DO try to be nice and friendly is when I get offended? Do I really deserve to be attacked just because I'm stupid? I don't know the answer to that question, even though I tried to imagine the situation out of my own shoes.

I'm a little more pathetic each day. And coincidentally, I'm a little more dependant each day. God... there sure are times when one really needs a hug or a couple of nice words. I only wish those times weren't so frequent for me...

Yes. It was there. That makes me a little more pathetic, doesn't it? I mean, I should expect such behaviour in such a place, even for it being a friendly board like the one I was browsing (and always browse, actually). But as Niki once taught to me... specific standarts don't make pain any less painful. Bye.

I feel crushed, disappointed, and just plain depressed. Worst of all, those feelings are slowly fading away, so soon I'll just feel empty... I think I'll sleep with lill' dragonfly's picture in my arms today.